Challenging Yourself

So, I am four days into the #ChloeTingChallenge - technically the 2WK Shred Challenge - though I have had to modify if considerably due to my fibromyalgia. I very quickly learnt it was simply impossible with my level of pain/fatigue and the roll-on effect that happens when I "over-do" something, that it was ridiculous of me and VERY counterproductive to attempt ALL of the workouts. I'd just destroy myself in the process. There is a level of pacing that must be taken into account when you have fibromyalgia, and after so many years with fibro, you get good at learning pacing.

While, yes, I got a bit upset that I could not do what I wanted to do, I decided that I would still be positive and do what I could do with what I do have.

That was, after all, why I had started this anyway.

I wanted to do something positive for myself.

I could bemoan the fact that I was getting weaker, that I was struggling more and more with simple household tasks, that my knees were giving out on me, or I could work towards a positive change.

If you've ever wanted ten minutes to feel like an eternity just follow the torture of a ten minute ABS workout. I will never understand how anyone can find exercise fun. It is not fun. It is awful and I hate every minute of torture. I lie on my yoga mat laughing hysterically at the pure hatred I have for exercise, but I still do it.

Have to cheer myself on:

"You can do it Kylie. You can do it. You are awesome! You can do it."

Day one, I started out barely able to do any of the exercises. No joke. I was SOOOO bad. A fifteen minute workout video took me forty-five minutes cause I needed so many breaks.

The next day I realised I needed to break up the workouts. One in the morning, one in the evening. There was no way I could attempt two videos one after the other.

That first video - it was easier though, and you know what, it's getting easier as the days go on. I'm getting stronger - I think - I mean, I can actually plank now for five seconds! Yay!

Yeah no, the ABS one, no. That's still torture.

I took a break the next day.

So, now I'm not looking at the Chloe Ting Challenge as being a Two Week thing. I'm looking at incorporating it into my daily exercise routine, making it a part of life. I want to get stronger. I don't want to feel so physically weak anymore - I mean, there is a chance I always will due to my fibro condition, but that doesn't mean I can't work towards strengthening - and I will put myself through the pain, the agony, the frustration, to reach that goal.