Of a 31st and Cats

Yesterday was my 31st Birthday.

I am very blessed. I am very grateful for a family who loves me.

It is a bit daunting to turn 31.

What is life?

What do you do?

I feel like my life has just been one of waiting.

What I'm waiting for, I'm not really sure.

Life is just a journey of waiting.

It isn't that I don't do anything.

I just personally feel like I'm waiting. I'm forever stuck on a beach, looking out at the horizon for a boat that never appears. I'm forever at a train station, waiting for a train that never arrives. I'm always lingering in a lobby, waiting for someone who never turns up.

Waiting. Forever waiting.

And I don't think there is anything wrong with that either.

Perhaps I'll spend the whole of my life with this feeling. Who knows. That's what waiting is, right, the anticipation that something, someone, someday...

Hope...

I have decided to embrace being a Cat Lady though. I don't care about the stigma - and boy-oh-boy, the stigma. I just don't care anymore. I know who I am, and someone can get to know me beyond any stupid labels we box ourselves into. If there is a guy out there somewhere, in this big wide world, he'll love cats just as much as me - or - he'll put up with them.

I just really love cats.

I have always loved cats.

Since I was a little girl I have loved cats. My first stories were about FLYING CATS.

Before I even knew what anime was, I was creating my own animes about flying cats and magical anime girls, I just had no idea that's what I was doing. ^_^ Ah, little Kylie was so adorable. She had just a great imagination.