Yesterday was my 31st Birthday.
I am very blessed. I am very grateful for a family who loves me.
It is a bit daunting to turn 31.
What is life?
What do you do?
I feel like my life has just been one of waiting.
What I'm waiting for, I'm not really sure.
Life is just a journey of waiting.
It isn't that I don't do anything.
I just personally feel like I'm waiting. I'm forever stuck on a beach, looking out at the horizon for a boat that never appears. I'm forever at a train station, waiting for a train that never arrives. I'm always lingering in a lobby, waiting for someone who never turns up.
Waiting. Forever waiting.
And I don't think there is anything wrong with that either.
Perhaps I'll spend the whole of my life with this feeling. Who knows. That's what waiting is, right, the anticipation that something, someone, someday...
I have decided to embrace being a Cat Lady though. I don't care about the stigma - and boy-oh-boy, the stigma. I just don't care anymore. I know who I am, and someone can get to know me beyond any stupid labels we box ourselves into. If there is a guy out there somewhere, in this big wide world, he'll love cats just as much as me - or - he'll put up with them.
I just really love cats.
I have always loved cats.
Since I was a little girl I have loved cats. My first stories were about FLYING CATS.
Before I even knew what anime was, I was creating my own animes about flying cats and magical anime girls, I just had no idea that's what I was doing. ^_^ Ah, little Kylie was so adorable. She had just a great imagination.
So, now I have two cats.
I'm sure I introduced you all to Charcoal. He has desires to be a Dragon. He is warm, gentle, strong and very kind but deep inside, he's a bit of a beast. He's also loves gaming with me during late, lonely nights when my pain is bad.
This is our newest member of the Writer's Cottage - Winter - she is twelve weeks old, I have no idea if she has a breed - she was a stray picked up by the RSPCA. Things started off a bit rocky with her introduction into our lives - I was worried how Charcoal would take a new kitten - and then she ended up with a very serious bout of the cat-flu and needed some antibiotics. But she's on the mend now and she has good friends with Charcoal, I often see them playing, and cuddling. She's very rambunctious and Charcoal's calm, steady, gentle nature is a very good fit for her chaos.
I deeply appreciate their presence during the times we're in. Their company is really comforting, especially during the long nights when the darkness has a habit of creeping into the soul.
I'll be a 30 something Cat Lady.
I accept it.
Also I promised my Dad I'd stop at two, and yeah, two is enough.
No. Seriously. It is.
Children grow up, right, and go to the loo on their own someday. Cats, CATS, you will FOREVER be cleaning out their kitty-litter trays. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Khajiit has potions. Khajiit can sell you potions. Khajiit wants coins.