Have you ever had a moment of instant regret, in which you know you've made a huge mistake the second after you do something.
I did that today, in which I picked up a giant concrete pot in my garden. These things weigh so much - I've never had someone else pick them up, so I don't know if anyone else could handle them better - but to me, I can *barely* move them. I have several, all of different sizes - left to me by the previous owner of my house.
This particular one is one of the largest and I had finally gotten around to painting it. To move it I had managed to heave it up onto my little cart and trundle it all the way into the front yard (hoping my beloved cart wouldn't break because this little wooden cart is all I have to carry heavy things with!)
Well...today...I was an idiot and forgot I could only shuffle this giant pot.
Instead, I actually lifted the whole thing - and I mean lifted it - full on lift, back into it, lift it, turn, to set it down about three steps away.
Do you have internal dialogue?
I have internal dialogue.
It was at the turn that my internal dialogue started.
"Well this is a bad idea."
"This has gone very, very wrong."
"That's a wall."
"I am heading for the wall."
"I am tipping."
"I am falling."
"The pot is falling."
"Oh gosh, my foot! My foot! The wall! My foot!"
I was going to hit the wall, I was going to fall over, the pot was slipping out of my grasp and it was going to smash into my foot. If I moved my foot out of the way I would lose my balance entirely and fall in the other direction with the pot on top of me.
While all this was happening, I was straining my back to keep the pot in my grasp to stop it from smashing my foot.
Finally, it all came crashing down and I twisted to miss my foot. Instead of my head hitting the wall, my shoulder did, the pot smashed down, missing most of my foot - but boy it hurt - and bam that pot went.
I folded over in pain and started laughing.
"Ah, Kylie, you are a idiot."
I had chipped my lovely painted pot, hurt my foot and back, all in under a minute.
On a more positive note, I also was able to paint my Japanese pagoda that will sit under my Japanese Maple Tree.
It is also made of solid concrete and it also weighs a ton. ^_^; I feel like everything in my garden is impossible for me to carry. XD